Monday, May 6, 2013
A sign of new beginning of my own life
I don't bother to think about my parents who thinks about themselves
One to the West and the other to the East
And me?
In the center of all the shit!
Sometimes I just think who am I to them
There is nothing to me
Me, books, God and "Him" that is all matters to me
Searching for jobs can give me a hard time
It has been 3 months after my last paper and yet I haven't get a proper job
It is very frustrating
I don't know what they are searching in me
Not as if I cant do any work and what more they want I have some working experience
Not as if I didn't work in whole entire life!
This is just ridiculous!
Till when I need to search and wait
All they want is Chinese speaking
Ouh come on! This is Singapore and not China
What is the use of taking English and need to pass in order to get diploma in the first place when at the end of the day most employers hiring Chinese speaking people?
Isn't that retard?
I don't know what to do
Feel like break down and give up everything
There so much thing that I need to think about
About this stupid family that forever giving me headache
Everything in my shoulders and not others
Yea this is called family when end up this individual on Earth (me) worrying so much for the future and not anyone else
Argh!
Sometimes I feel like running away from all these
Every night I lay on my bed thinking and planning for tomorrow
Will I ever get a job ?
Where do I find job?
All they think is the money in the bank that they wanted to quickly finish it up before it burns in the bank
Money ! Money ! Money ! is all the care about
As if they will die without seeing money
No point la have lots of money when all you have is emptiness
For now I don't even know what type of job I want to work
For sure I don't want to work in an office
I just want to find work that I really like because I want to commit this work till I retires and not changing job a few months
I feel like continuing studying in culinary school but then when thinking about the financial burden and the support from no one I think I cant go far I guess
Tell me what to do ?
I'm in the lost
| Breaking Down 2:11:00 PM
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