God help me
| Breaking Down 7:58:00 PM
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Monday, March 11, 2013
Today like any other days I'm stuck at home doing nothing
This is awesome and this is what I'm waiting to do all along
But not in this crampy house with no room for myself
Not only that living in a dark house all this while makes me feel that I'm living in some kind of jungle and prison
Ok I am living in one (because I cant go anywhere)
But the same time I just annoyed and irritated by her actions
Early in the morning go to the next door and talking dont know what (only God's knows)
She keep busybody in other people life
She don't even learn her mistakes that once upon a time the people that she busybody with talk bad about this family to other people
Whats the point of being two sided face?
That's the people that she want to mix with ?
She is too gullible and nothing can change her
Not even me!
I say a bit and there she goes blah,blah, blah lecturing me instead!
Her actions is just weird and I'm not that stupid
Of course I know what she is doing
All the nonsense stuff
But then she should be clever enough of not believing all those stuffs
I know "they" exist in this world but then believing too much will let the faith fade away
What should I do then?
I keep quiet and do my own business
But they keep asking me to do this and that
Like hello I'm not your damn Secretary
If I dont help them will anyone help to support me? Of course not because she is on their side now
I don't want at the end of the day she get cheated all her money away or even life for instance
Oh well I really cant wait to get away from this place
| Breaking Down 1:26:00 PM
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Sunday, March 3, 2013
Maafkan aku bila hasratku keliru
At this point of time I'm at the lost
What more to hold?
From where do I get the strength to continue this new journey of mine?
From the starting of it, I know this is what I need to face all along and I believe that I can be strong to face all this
But now it seems that it just had faded away
Do I have the strength to continue?
I don't know why the uncertainties in their receiving of me
Are they just want to give face to me?
I know I cant forced them to accept me but whats wrong with me?
Yes I know I may not come from the same culture but does it make any difference?
I'm human being too
Who cares about the indifference?
We are all human that created from the same God
Am I not good enough?
I don't know what I have done wrong
How do I get rid the stereotype?
What more should I prove to them?
I've tried hard enough and I'm at the verge of giving everything up
Is it worth the wait if all day I had to keep it all in?
Oh god please give me strength to face all this
If it does happen, I should be happy
The only thing that I will regret is that I didn't keep someone tight
You can hate me for all I care but
Hopefully one find day they just realized the sincerity that I had
| Breaking Down 7:51:00 PM
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Friday, March 1, 2013
I just really don't understand her
when I bloody free at home, she dunt want to go out and when its my turn to go out,there she is busying to do this and that
Come on man!
Give me some bloody break!
All these years you have been controlling my life
Its my turn now to have my bloody life
Till when you want to control my life?
Keep saying I'm selfish and follow my dad footstep
Like hello can't I have my own time?
All this while I have been there compared to the other siblings
Not grateful enough
Oh well nothing that I do will make her happy
Becoz she is too perfect
I'm not an angel and I wont be one
I have said enough
No matter how good I am, I wont be a good daughter to her
Oh well I have nothing to say
I've given up
| Breaking Down 10:55:00 AM
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