Sunday, July 22, 2012
I feel soo low, weak,stupid, hopeless and useless
God am I all that?
Simple thing like that I also cant do by myself?
Or the people just put too much expectation
Human being likes to condemn people huh
Why?
They think what they did is super great
Didn't appreciate the thoughts that has been put in
But do they ever thing about the feelings that the people went through?
Its normal for me though to get such remarks but then I don't know why I feel so sad and disappointed
I thought someone should be the ones who give me the encouragement not a condemnation
Ouh well I accepted it even though it hurts
What to do..
| Breaking Down 2:54:00 PM
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Saturday, July 21, 2012
First day of Ramadhan
29 more days to go
I have so much plan in mind that I want to spend time with
But I cant really went out so frequent since my exam not yet start and I need to prepare it well
Today, I manage to make it through successfully even though the body seems so tired & lazy
With the weather seems so humid makes me wanna stay in bed all day without doing anything
Yup I did nothing today except reading "my best-friend" & now I started to do my project which seems that I cant finish by tonight either due to the team mates that I have not yet receive their part
Gosh when do I ever get to rest and get rid of these projects
I'm bored doing reports and ppt slides
This Ramadhan feels so sad without them in this house
I miss them
But then what to do..
The parents choose to this to my family
Hope they are doing there in where ever they are
2 more presentations to go which is on Monday and the Finale of all on Saturday
Will busy preparing for them and also starting on preparing for exam
That's what a student life is
| Breaking Down 9:26:00 PM
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Thursday, July 19, 2012
Having difficult time working with bunch of slackers and slower classmates like us?
Didn't blame you for that
Because we know that no matter how much effort that we put it in, you will still wont satisfy with our work
Because you put so much pressure on yourself
You put high standard on the others
Don't get me wrong that we expect you to do everything by yourself or use you by getting an A for us but then think back again we still have the other priority to do other projects too
We didn't ask you to do
I can do that but will you like the standard that I do?
I know my standard wont be your standard
We also trying our best to do the project
Think that we are slackers like what you think?
Its ok
We are always the minority of people that people don't want to work with as we are the troublesome ones
Ouh well
We cant change the perception of other people do we?
Part and parcel of life
In front of us, they will smile
You don't know behind the back they might be stabbing you real hard without you knowing it
This is human being created by God
| Breaking Down 11:09:00 PM
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Saturday, July 14, 2012
Ahduii
My whole body is aching due to NAFA yesterday
Expected it to be aching but don't know till when since donkey years I have not been exericising
The sad part is that I didnt pass my NAFA for the first time in my entire life of schooling
What is wrong with me?
Huhu
I guess the age is the factor
Yea I know age is not an excuse for anyone not to exercise
Ouh well everything is over
As long as I had attempted and did my best is good enugh
rather than some people who dont even give themselves a try
Anyway,when I enter into the working life, I'm sure that I'll miss doing that
Also they wont see the result whether I'm fit to be working for the company
So no point of complaining much
Later people will say I'm just a complain queen
Thats life
People cant see others to be happy
Enough said
1 more week to Ramadhan
1 more month to exam
4 more presentations to go
I hope I can go through this holy month with great strength
Insya allah
| Breaking Down 6:26:00 PM
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Wednesday, July 4, 2012
I dun know why these people keep disturbing me
Who else if not bunch of monkeys in class
Ouh come on
Grow up la guys
You guys are not small kids anymore
Act as grown up
Its not being funny or making jokes when you start calling people names
I'm not the top student in class
I didn't even disturb people in class
I just did my own work
I dont know why must it be ME
Discrimination against race?
I know la I'm the only Malay girl in my class
So?
It doesn't mean that they have the authority to bully me and b
eing quiet doesn't mean that they can make fun of me too
I'm just a human being like them
I also have feelings
I hate that when they do this to me
Because of that it just affect the project meetings
The more I see their face the more hatred I have in them
Not only that they are such a nuisance in the class
Never come to tutorials
Always skip lectures
I don't know why they are in here in the first place
Doesn't mean that the are smart they can do anything that they want
Whats the point of being smart but at the same time lazy
With these attitude it cant bring them to nowhere
Ouh well
A few more months and
tats it
I'm outta from that place and wont see bunch of monkeys behaving like small kids
All I'm just gonna do is to just ignore them
Make as if they are talking to the wall
Don't waste time disturbing people
They are not even handsome in the first place
So better see yourself in the mirror before you come and disturb me ok
Losers!!
| Breaking Down 8:13:00 PM
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Sunday, July 1, 2012
A bad starting for the month of July whereby everything seems not right
I'm not sure it will be better as the days goes by
I hope it does
Insya allah
With most projects are due this month, I'm sure it will bring a lot of hard work and hell to me
Anyway, June is not a good month either
With the "family tsunami" that hits us suddenly
In fact every month has their own good and bad things
Now what do I look in July?
To gain back the love that once has been blossom but suddenly it just crushes down in few moments
Its a bad memories that shouldn't be in my memory for long as it just hurts
No matter how hard it takes, I just need to move on rather than keep on crying my hearts out
No matter how hard I cry, it just happened
Human being cant run away from mistakes and so do I
I know I have done lots of mistakes in life
I cant change it or it cant be back to normal again either
I'm not God who has the ability to make the bad to good
All I can do is to ask for forgiveness
I know what for saying sorry when it doesn't mean anything
I had done my best to make it better
Learn from the past mistakes
Leave it behind and move on
All I can do now is to be patience and hopefully everything will be alright by then
For now I shall focus on my projects that are waiting for me
I hope that I have a better days ahead of me
God, I need your guidance and strength
Amin
| Breaking Down 2:32:00 PM
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