Friday, July 29, 2011
Why?
This roller coaster feeling is here
Unstable mind and soul
Argh!!
Just hate it
At this point of time
I cant let my feelings take over my mind
I need to focus as exam is getting near and nearer
This is it!!
Whether I can make it through or that's the end of it
Ouh come on redha
Positive thinking!!
Distracted is all I can say
Dear mind please be kind and get back to my body and let me concentrate on what I'm suppose to do can?
Please dont wander around as if you are in the lost state..
| Breaking Down 6:02:00 PM
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Tuesday, July 26, 2011
Irritating!!
Early in the morning she already asked me for money
What the hell!!
Like hello all you know is asked for money!!
Did you ever think about whether I have enough for myself?
For all my expenses?
NOO!!! NOO AT ALL!!
Because of that I forgo my cruise so that I can save more money
But all she knows is asked for more
I informed her that I need to give her less this month
You know what she say?
Give me normal amount la
I need to pay something
She forever not enough
Then what?
I don't need to spend anything?
I don't need to pay all my bills
All she does is pay my travelling expenses?
Might as well I pay everything for myself and don't even need to give her my pay money right!!
For her information, I'm not supporting this bloody family yet
I'm just a student
I'M STRUGGLING REAL HARD TO SAVE THE MONEY!!!
Maybe I just too kind uh to give half of my salary to her.( Not half almost everything and I can't even enjoy the money. All I get is the tiring, pain and suffering. Thanks eh)
Fair enough?
Now I stopping work for the moment and I wonder how I'm suppose to survive
Luckily it is fasting month soon at least I can save some money.
| Breaking Down 4:28:00 PM
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Thursday, July 21, 2011
Words are such an evil monsters.
Should keep quiet rather than speak up
That's the reason why I like to keep to myself as I'm scared to hurt someone's feeling
I just did that!!
It feels like thousand of cuts cutting through my heart.
Slashing
I hate myself for that now
I can't forgive myself
It is the worst feeling ever
ouh gosh please be strong redha!!
I know I can face this obstacles strongly
| Breaking Down 9:13:00 PM
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Tuesday, July 19, 2011
Ouh gosh exam is here again
Gonna start studying really soon
Must get motivated
Left with 2 more projects and that's it for the semester
Stop procrastinating and stop doing
Focus Redha
| Breaking Down 10:33:00 PM
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Wednesday, July 6, 2011
The talk just now just make ponder for the moment
Even though its for awhile but didn't regret of going
It has been awhile since I attend motivational talk
This talk was held at the right time since I really need a motivation at this point of time
Hmm..
What is the meaning of Life?
Who am I?
Watching netball just reminds me of the old days
They days get I always get scolded from seniors and coach
Where at one point of time I wanna quit but in the end I stay on
The suffering and pain is just pay off(even though never win any trophy)
But to get to play for 7 years and present the school is just a honour to me
The curiousity of what is netball when I'm 12 years old is being answered by experience it by myself. How cool is that??
Now I'm gonna miss playing netball badly..
| Breaking Down 10:15:00 PM
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Saturday, July 2, 2011
This is so awesome. Blogging using my phone for the 1st time.
Whoo!!
Thanks cuzzie for telling me this.
I'm noob in technolog
haha
| Breaking Down 4:06:00 PM
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