Wednesday, April 27, 2011
Projects and tons of projects are in my way now
It just the 1st week of school and projects are here to haunt me
Argh!!!!
3 more weeks and I had my 1st project to be submitted and a presentation to be presented
Ouh gosh..
That was super scary
Give me break man!!
But I guess time manangement and planning is the key to everything
Hmm..
I shall start my research soon so that I can do everything else
This journey is getting interesting here
I dont know where it will lead me to.
The hardworking and serious girl?
The hardworking,fun and crazy happy go lucky girl?
I guess I will choose the 2nd option
Happy go lucky girl is what I am
It's good to make people smile with my jokes though
Smile always =]
| Breaking Down 7:10:00 PM
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Monday, April 25, 2011
Today 1st day of year 2.
Life has change since I'm being a loner now
I guess I need to adapt to the new environment once again
Classmates not that friendly
I guess this is being the 1st day
Hmm
The feeling is just not right
I dont know what I'm fear with
Presentation?
Lonely?
Peer pressure?
It's just not the same again
The feeling of enjoying going to school
Looking forward to go school so that I can be with my friends but now all that no more
The only thing that I'm looking forward is going home
I just hate this feeling of being weird
Furthermore, these people at home is getting too much and getting comfortable here
Mum just spolit them more by taking care of their children
She should just heck care with them since she is in this state
If they got brains, they wont do that to Mum
Another problem of mine is that I become of "loan shark" to someone
This people keep pestering me for money
Like hello!!
Do you have any brain??
Do I look a DBS bank to you??
Wait I grow money plant then I will give you.
For now just stop pestering me and give me more problems
My problems that I facing is enough for me to go berserk..
Gotta go
Getting ready for a test
| Breaking Down 5:50:00 PM
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Sunday, April 24, 2011
What's wrong with these people at home?
Each and everyone of them.
Just selfish and mind their own business
While me??
I'm just so stress with them
Screaming and shouting their lungs out like crazy human
I also want to scream like them too coz I had enough
People just doesnt reply my messages when I need them the most
Why?
Where are they?
My heart just thumping hard
Feel like there's something bad that gonna happen
I dont even know why
Ahh.. Maybe my mind is going wild
1 more day school reopening
Dont look forward to that day.
I feel my body seems to be weak
I guess too much of resting
Hahaha
Should I take the opportunity back again?
Wont the memories haunt me?
If I dont take the opportunity, they might say that I dont know how to repay kindness
But then..
Why is it hard to make decision?
God please answer all my unanswered questions that I couldnt find
Let it be the last
So that I wont regret having this decision
| Breaking Down 11:40:00 AM
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Wednesday, April 20, 2011
I'm so shattered
It's just so hurting
Feel so cheated
How could they just dash my dreams like that??
If I know it turns this way,I didnt change my GSM in the 1st place
Damn irritating!!
Waste my bloody time!!
Another problem in this stupid house
Like hello if you want to make enemy in this bloody house,can you please leave and go back to your house
Dont make trouble in this house of mine
If you think we like to complain by all means leave this place
coz we had enough of your attitude
My parents and I will be glad so that we have a peaceful house again
Where I can study in peace without any disturbance
Headache and more headache
Dear body please adapt to new environment as you wont be that busy and tired anymore
I'm giving you a break
Be kind to me and recover soon alright
School is reopening in 4 more days
So I need you to be ok
| Breaking Down 3:09:00 PM
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Monday, April 18, 2011
All you care about is MONEY,MONEY and MONEY!!!!
Am I bank to you???
Is not that I stingy or something
But I'm not a FULL TIME EMPLOYEE mind you!!
I'M A FULL TIME STUDENT and because of you I need to find bloody job!!!!
You asked me to focus on my studies and quit my job
Who gonna support me??
Who gonna pay for my bills??
Who gonna give me money for my expenses??
I'm the one!!!
I'm the one who need to pay for everything!!
My savings keep draining out but do you care???
Of course not
Because I'm the one who is working super hard for the money
Got to go and have some rest after 1 night of shivering
| Breaking Down 8:15:00 PM
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Saturday, April 16, 2011
My 1st weekend off was awesome
Got to stay at home most of the time
1 more week for school reopening
Ouh yea
Gonna spend my holidays to the fullest
With my books waiting to be read
Sleeping late here I come
Books
Tv come here to me
I got plenty of time to waste on so that I wont remind of somebody else
I guess I'm strong to forget about some people
If just life has delete button
I shall use that to delete all unhappiness in life
Goodbye
| Breaking Down 7:03:00 PM
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Friday, April 15, 2011
Making decision do have pros and cons
When think back somehow regretted leaving my 1st job
Now Mum asked me to study full time
She scared that I will not focus on my studies
Hiaz
Very sad
I cant earned money
Cant spend my money anyhow anymore
Who gonna support me if I dont have a part time job?
I cant keep spending on the government money that they gave it to me
Soon or later the money will be gone
I asked Mum to sponser me but she angry with me
I do know her situation too ok
She dont have enough for herself
If I dont work then who gonna pay my bills and expenses
Argh!!!
This is just crazy
Easy said than to be done uh
Just if I stay in my 1st job
If I just have the patience
If I just..
Argh!!! Too much if and in the end..
No point regretting
The only thing now is to find a better job soon
| Breaking Down 12:33:00 AM
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Wednesday, April 13, 2011
I'm breaking free
I'm soaring flying
This is the feeling that I have been waiting for so long( a month only)
Awesome!!!
Finally
I resigned!!!After I sign the resignation form I feel so relieve
I'm so happy!!!
I dont care they wanna call me a quitter or what
I would rather choose that than to be unhappy all my life
Suffering physical and mentally
This is real
This is me
I'm exactly where I'm suppose to be now
Gonna get the light
Shine one me
Now I found who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I wanna be
THIS IS MEOuh yea!!!
After this I think I'm gonna concentrate on my studies then
Somehow I feel phobia to find a new job
Once bitten twice shyGotta go
Gonna read my book which is waiting for me
Sayonara =]
| Breaking Down 8:06:00 PM
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Saturday, April 9, 2011
It has been a month now working there
Isnt it too late for these people to be kind and help me out after the incident?
Dont think I will take back my words of resigning
If the day has come, I'll surely go
Down with flu
3 days now
Hiaz
Dear flu can you please recover faster
I wanna be strong as before
Why he hasnt reply my email?
Gotta go
| Breaking Down 7:20:00 PM
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Monday, April 4, 2011
Who is he who want to control my life?
He is just a bloody manager He has no right to interfere my personal life
It's good enough that I do come to work and bloody well do my job rather than not working
For the first time can you jolly well appreciate what your crew have done for the company bastard? I dont know how you can be the restaurant manager in the first place
Who is the blind person who chose him as the restaurant manager?
Really arrogant bastard
Expect the newbie knows everything
Thanks to him and some of the bastards who drives me into depression and crazy
I guess they are happy now that they can make me cry
It's ok
I shall show you the truth colour of Redha
I'm in dilemma again
Quit?
I'm not a quittter yet!!
Stay?
Even though I'll be suffering and unhappy working there???
Argh!!!
I have no answer to all this
It's just endless in the cross road
| Breaking Down 8:49:00 PM
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Sunday, April 3, 2011
Shedding into tears is somehow good enough to release the stress that has been kept for a long time
I had enough of them
I dont ask for sympathy
It just that they push me to my limit
Today is yet another day
Hmm
Hopefully today will be better day
Look at the bright side uh
| Breaking Down 2:34:00 PM
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Saturday, April 2, 2011
The pain is unbearable now
I cant take it any longer
I guess no one does
I would rather be jobless than continue to work there and suffer my life
Like working in hell
I have made up my mind
I wont take another thoughts
It's time for me to walk away with pride
Not a loser
Proud of myself to come this far
I wont regret
It's job hunting time
You can continue to bully the rest of the newcomers but not me
I had enough.
I'm sure and believe that the retribution will come for what you had done to me
I think I had recieve mine for leaving my previous job since they need manpower badly.
Your retribution will come soon or later
Sayonara
| Breaking Down 3:28:00 PM
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