Tuesday, December 28, 2010
Almost everyone in the house is falling sick
Quite worry especially my mum
Yesterday I was scared to death when Mum suddenly to be weak and cant get up
Luckily Brother was at home.If not I dont know what to do
I think her stroke is reocurring back
Haiz looking at her situation makes me wanna cry
Who is gonna look after her when I'm in school?
At least last time there is helper to look after but now nobody
Everyone is busy with work.
With school break left with a few more days to go and the 1st project is due when school reopens
I get a liitle worry here.
Oh gosh!!
Here comes the killer module where I dont know what to research on
One of the team members gives me problems whereby I'm trying to do on my research.
I'm so pressurized and stress when thinking about all these projects and furthermore my Mum is weak again.
God please show me guidance and look after my family.
| Breaking Down 1:39:00 PM
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Thursday, December 16, 2010
It has been a week since "the helper" is gone
Hmm somehow it is good for me
I got my own room back
I can do whatever I want
I got back my privacy
Oh yea!!
Sad for Mum
She need to do the household again
Haiz
Feel so gulity didnt help her
I'm just finding the time to help
I mean I dont even have the time to finish up my tutorials and how am I suppose to help her with the household
This will teach "that woman" a lesson
Now no more "helper" get your butt off and start contributing to the household
Noones will do for you anymore.
Holidays coming in.
Whoo!!!
At least I can take a break and relax my brain for a few days as I need to finish up my projects.
Challenging time again.
I'm sure I can handle this with patience and determination =]
| Breaking Down 1:55:00 AM
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Tuesday, December 7, 2010
I dont know why my brain just went blank for the Access question
I knew that I can do that question
Now the only thing that I need to do is buck up in my test
Damn!!! Just spoilt my mood
What the world I'm thinking right now?
I'm easily distracted
Oh gosh please dont let me get distracted and went wild in my own world
Get back to my world and I need to pull myself together to face this
Enough of my world and get back to serious mood now before it's too late Redha
Fight and continue fighting until your limit
I knew I can fight this war with perseverance and determination
Jiayou !!
DONT LET ANYONE BRING YOU DOWN YOU ARE WHO YOU ARE FIGHT THIS TILL THE END !!!
| Breaking Down 8:05:00 PM
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Sunday, December 5, 2010
Tomorrow I'm having 2 test at the same time
Both modules I hate most Statistic and POA
I'm used to be good at POA but dont know somehow I drop from the sky to the bottom of the seabed
Hiaz so sian
Last 2 days have been bad for me as I'm down with flu.
Rest most of the times
It has been a while since I took a long rest.
Oh gosh now I dont know what to do
The feeling of "Heck-dont Care" is here to hunt me
Not strong enough to avoid that feeling
How am I suppose to get A with this feeling?
oh gosh!!
| Breaking Down 9:52:00 PM
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Thursday, December 2, 2010
For the first time since I step into higher tertiary level, I fail my module
It's just so dishearten
With classmates keep comparing results
Damn it !!
Keep saying that I know I can be strong to face this but in the end I failed
It's just not my place
I pushing my limits until I cant go any further anymore
Furthermore, now I'm falling sick at this point of time
I cant afford to take MC as next week I'm having test
Oh gosh !!! My body feeling weak
My head is spining
Nose keep blocking
Oh god please help me to overcome all this
| Breaking Down 7:19:00 PM
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Wednesday, December 1, 2010
Confused
How am I supposed to hide time and again?
How am I supposed to tell the world?
How long am I supposed to keep this thing from anyone?
How are they going to react if they found out?
Will I be in deep trouble?
Or will they be happy for me?
Regret?
It's just too late now to change everything
I dont want it to end this way
Neither do I want it to be this way
Oh GOD please help me to give some guidance so that I can face this challenge strongly
Scared?
Yea I am really scared for the future as I dont know what it brings
But I know somehow no matter what GOD will be there to show me the answer to all the questions.
For the moment, let me focus on my studies
| Breaking Down 12:34:00 AM
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