Monday, May 18, 2009
Heyo people..
This few days has make me think a bit more about life.Maybe i should not think about myself but to think about other people's feelings too.
Thanks to someone that i realised it.
I thought that 2nd year will be a bit more relaxed but then it seems to be more stress. Lecturer say we need to be relaxed and not think too much as it will be a 'continous stress'..
More projects, test and presentations coming up. Maybe i need to enjoy my days so i wouldnt think about all the problems and the stress waiting for me..
| Breaking Down 9:59:00 AM
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Wednesday, May 13, 2009
Today i feel like wanting to be alone. I want to think it thoroughly all the things that is happening.I know there is a reason why this thing happening..I still cant accept the fact that 'they' are at my house.. Yesterday is the last day that i will have peace at home.
Haiz why??
I went home from school and 'they' are packing their things and the house was in a big mess..Since i was very tired from training i just went into my room and 'stone'.. 'They' talked to me but i just give 1 or 2 answer only.. I am still
mad at 'them' but until when? Sooner or later i need to face the truth. Now i need to take a step at a time and focus on my studies. Next week is a test week for me. Can i make it through??
Oh god please make me more stronger to face all this..
| Breaking Down 9:19:00 AM
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Monday, May 11, 2009
Why do they do this to me when i am doing fine with my studies? Last week i heard from mum that 'they' are coming back home.
Why after all the things 'they' have done to us they still want 'them' to live with us??
I am just so angry and sad.It's not that i dont like but then i dont wanna them to suffer because of 'them'.. Dont they learnt from the past?? I know it is hard for them too but cant they think for me once?? They dont pity me for all the pain that i have gone through in silence for years.. Haiz .. It is just so painful to go through the pain again.. Cant 'they' just leave us alone.. Now i'm in last year in school and i dont want it to affect my studies but i know i cant. There will be distractions somehow. Maybe i'm just so selfish!! But that's life!!I know god is testing me..
I need to go through it all and i dont care anymore..
| Breaking Down 10:18:00 AM
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